Results...Kinda?

Sorry It's taken me so long to update but I thought It best for me to understand my results first before trying to explain them to you, then I had more hospital appointments for other bits and news on them so It's been a little hectic.

Okay so my results are either one of two things, 1: My Desmoids are to small to show up on a CT (which would be great news) OR 2: They don't show up on scans (not so fun news). So they next step for them is I now have to return to the surgeon who found them when opening me up as he is the only person who can answer this. So the next step is booking in to see him and then returning back to the specialist in a couple of months to tell them what he said. I know what your thinking "Why don't they ask him?" Yeah they did with no response, So it is now down to me to personally find out and get my CT's from him as well.

What did highlight on the CT though was my closed Fallopian Tube is now full of fluid along with the Ovary (Fun Times!) So now have to go get that scanned separately and then see a DR for that, So excited..another Dr, YAY!

I Just met with another Dr (Yes I am collecting them now lol)  last week about the lump in my jaw and they want to biopsy it, they have also asked for a CT and Xray to, no Ultrasound as I already had that done. After all that I will see them next month to discuss surgery! Gosh the fun keeps on coming!

And thennnn lol Just one more! I am off to a plastic Surgeon who will fix my scar from when they found my Desmoids nearly 4 years ago as the top won't heal properly. By this I mean my body keeps telling it it hasn't healed yet so keeps healing so it is growing outwards which gets in the way sometimes and really itches to. It use to weep as well but last year that finally stopped :)

So yeah it's been kind of busy at the moment, and how I feel about it all changes daily but I keep on smiling as it's one of the things in life we have control of, being happy :)

I hope you are all well and pain free <3

The countdown

Okay so next Monday I get my results, find out where these are an how big they are and although I'm feeling positive and thinking of all the best options I am nervous. I keep thinking being nervous when you don't think the results are going to be bad is wrong, like I shouldn't feel this way. But tonight I learnt it's okay. Nerves are a natural human reaction to the unknown, or in some cases the known. You could have long hair and about to get a long bob and you feel nervous! Perfectly okay. About to go on a date and your nervous, also okay! There is no rule book for nerves, they just show up when they want to. How we handle them though is a different matter. I for one become short tempered and emotional so the second I feel the nerves feeling creeping in I am straight to my husband to let him know, not so he can give me sympathy!! No I don't want none of that, just so he knows his silly moments that would normally make me laugh, probably not the best time for them. Basically treat me like it's "That Time" again lol All us women get "That Time" and I tell him so my nerves don't cause us any problem. I usually tuck myself away with a film and a cheeky drink and let it ride over me, Then the moments that doesn't work I know I have my amazing husband and family who are there to listen or just for cuddles. So just remember, any emotion you are feeling, it's okay! Some may not understand it and that's okay to, we are all different. One thing I've learnt is... It's Okay To Be Different :)

I hope you are all well and pain free <3